Back To Blogging !!!

Hi everybody, I have really taken a long time to come back to my blog. After 8-month idleness in Chennai, I had a hectic life in Ahmedabad for 3 months. Now I'm successfully benched in Bangalore.

Life teaches lessons to each one, so does it did to me. I was desperate to get out of my home during those 8 months, but when I was away from home leading a hectic and stressful life facing failures. I felt lonely and started missing my home. I started missing my mom a lot. I messed up few tests during my training, so ended up getting my second option Bangalore and not first option Chennai :(

When I was desperate enough to come back to Chennai , but i was not able to come back . Now life in Bangalore is not so bad, but still it isn't equivalent to staying at home. Missing my parents, home food, my unlimited broadband connection, my activa etc....

Hereafter I will be regularly blogging.

p.s : Soon, I will update you more about my Bangalore life :)

Happy days :)

At last i got sometime to write :) I'm as usual too busy chatting and in twitter these days... I hardly have time to read blogs. This month is so much happening for me. I got my passport after struggle of 8 months. My long awaited date of joining also came :) All are happy in home.

Past few months i was ranting about me sitting idle in home and not doing anything constructively. But now when i think about past 8 months, i feel i have really learnt a lot. I was the one little girl who always wanted her parent's help in getting something. My parents where too busy that they didn't had time to spare with me. I went alone everywhere to get my passport. I was short of one proof so i went to commissioner office to get a letter from deputy commissioner , who happens to be my friend's mom. I have now started to act individually without any ones help. So i have learnt to me individual. At times I'm too proud of myself :P I going alone to training along with my parents and my parents are not accompanying me :) At last i feel that my parents want me to face this world all alone , learn more about it.
Day before doj came where like hell , but still i managed to have fun and now after doj mail came its heaven, at last i came to know my destiny and future but I'm not able to have fun. Its the time to break all my laziness, internet addiction and a lot more. I'm still in a mixed emotion regarding my training :( :) :P Shopping is almost over. I'm getting prepared myself mentally for training these days.
Another happy news is my bro gonna come to India soon. I'm so excited about it. I have been missing him terribly. I just hope he comes before my joining.
So this is what happening in my life right now. Sorry to all my blog buddies for not able to be active and comment for their posts. I will be back blogging form soon. I'm forcing my mom to start a Tamil blog soon. She will be launching it quite soon.
This year has been treating me so well i hope this continues.

P.S: 25 days to go :)

Wonderful day

31st December my birthday... Best birthday so far celebrated... All the friends gathered in my home for lunch... Gossiped a lot... Had cake ,drinks and lunch :) Evening we all friends went to tower park :)Thanks to mom for preparing such a delicious food for us... Got my birthday gift from dad 6 days before , gift is New HONDA ACTIVA :) I'm so lucky to get this costliest gift from my dad ,even though I'm sitting in home useless for these months... My dad is really very generous... My friends , mom and dad made this birthday most memorable...
And my dear bro never minded to wish me on my birthday but he celebrated my birthday in his home with his friends :) Even though i scolded him for celebrating my birthday and cutting a cake in my name... But in heart i liked what he did :) Love u bro :) Here is his cake for me...



Its was a nice way to end the year and welcome the NEW YEAR 2009 :)
Started the year so well.. Installed the new OS in my PC, got 100 twitter followers :D
Happy and prosperous New Year to all the bloggers :)

p.s: Arvind Happy birthday :)
I wish let this year bring a lot of happiness to me and mainly my joining :)

Qurik qurik qurik :)

I was tagged by friend whacky a month before... Due to my laziness I'm doing this tag only now... In my real life many people know that I'm a weird person... Here goes my quirks...

• I have the habit of speaking to myself when i get tensed or irritated, in order to calm down myself... Also whenever I'm so upset i speak and try to motivate myself :)
• Mom and me will quarrel daily for no matter :) Sometimes we both quarrel too much... Those time i just express my anger on my mom in my rough note/dairy... Even now I'm having this habit...
• I have the habit of deleting numbers of my friends when they don't contact me for a long time or when I'm angry on them for some silly reasons...
• I get nightmares everytime before my exams... Nightmare will be about me getting arrears in one or two papers... But mostly when the results are out i would have scored more only in those two papers...
• I have a never give up habit... I can do any work N number of times until i get perfection in them...
• Whenever any results are out for me, i make sure i wear green or blue color dress on that particular day... Quite sentimental towards it...
• I'm wearing one opal ring right from my first year of college... I feel its very lucky for me... For some reasons I never remove it...
• I hate all reptiles, expect snake... I have a great craziness for snake... I can watch anything related to snake on the earth :) I have even wanted a snake as my pet :P

These are some quirk things i do... Still a lot there... But i think this is more than enough... I'm tagging this to aloy and also people who are interested can do this tag :)

p.s : I had a good response from my friends for my last post... At last i have decided to comment in other blogs...

In peace :D

Off from blog so many days... No mood to write any post... At last all my friends started asking me why i dint update anything for these many days... So i thought let me scribble something today... I have even got a tag to do... I thought not to start with a tag after a long break...
I have been attending all the marriages in my relation circle and everyone asking me what u doing??? As usual vetti thaan irrukkane , waiting to join my company i have been placed...
Next question ohh are they going to call u to join them??? (lil , angrily) yeah they gonna call me (in mind why the hell this aunt torturing me... she has one bro vothavakarai paiyan doing nothing have many arrears she asking questions to me :P)

Nowadays i'm enjoying each and every moment :) stopped worrying about my joining... I'm have been practicing patience and peace... My friends who know me personally will be wondering that me and peace... ya i am seriously in peace rejuvenating myself... I got used all this questions from my relations,cousins and even from my servant maid... I am just having only one month still to enjoy in home in January i am obviously gonna kicked out of my home... So no worry, no tension im always chilling...

Watched all good and crappy movies in home... Went for dostana with my friends to sathyam... Even my friend who don't know hindi also enjoyed the movie... I have got a new time pass which is very much interesting than my twitter and facebook... It is same old orkut , but something new which i am into last 2 weeks is chatting in orkut communities where u can get unlimited mokkais ,fun , also you meet up many vetti people like me... I have really got many friends these communities :) So if anybody is really very much bored just go to any good community have fun chatting :)

In all this midst few of my friends call me and get counseling from me on how to be calm, patient and happy... I have been showing peace path to many of them... I feel so proud :) I feel like i am an saint :P Nowadays i am coming across very good funny humorous blogs... Thanks to m who invited to one of his group blog where each and every post is ROFL,LOL... At last after struggling 7 long months i have learn the art being peaceful and patient :D

p.s : Those who also want to practice this can get help from me ;) :P

worst month ever

This month is the worst month i have ever come across in my life... Starting of this month my maternal granny expired... After that on second week of the month , my friend's grandpa got expired... In third week my dad's periyama expired... Also heard one of another friend's grandpa expired.... What a deathly month it is????
But people who have expired were in their 80's and 90's , suddenly everybody i know getting expired is something unbearable... I was chatting with my dad about this yesterday, he said its their age factor we can't do anything... Also added up , that my grandma and his periyama have really lived a long life and in future life span of the individuals will be very less...
Here goes the superstitious stuffs or something my family follow strictly is theetu when somebody in our family expires... For my granny it was only 3 days for us since she was my maternal relation... Coming my dad's periyama we have it for 10 days along with that no festivals should be celebrated for one year by us... I may agree for mourning their death for 3 or 10 days is ok, but this one year non celebration is really bugging me big time...
For last 3 yrs someone or else in my dad's family have been dying whom even my dad doesn't know and we are forced non celebrate it... Last 3 years i was not questioning much about these stuffs to my parents, but thus time asked why are following stuffs like this??? My mom answered there is no explanation why we are doing like this , but what we are is good for our family.... Is any non celebration is good for the family and family members...??
Coming to this theetu stuff its supposed to kept for 10 days if any relations in my dad side is expired... Then here comes a question its to be kept for 1st and 2nd link of relations right??? In my dad side they follow this for 4th and 5th link relations... This really sucks big time... I remember last time we kept this for 4th link relation whom even my dad don't know but since my periyapa ordered us to do so...
My question is if somebody expires the mourning for them for few minutes and praying for their soul to rest in peace is more than enough, but why people are following like these theetu stuffs and non celebrations...???? Will this thing get stopped with me parents or even my brother and i have to follow this???

p.s: This time no Diwali... Also actually nobody in a mood to celebrate it too...
I'm done with my blogger block at last :)

R.I.P grandma

1st oct morning , 5.15 am my grandma joined the god leaving me... So im not in a mood to write about my navarathri celebration and also didn't took pictures of golu... Spent 2 weeks in my native so peacefully in the rememberance of my grandma... Sometimes crying, sometimes praising about her... She was 91yrs , I used to tell her you will live more than 100yrs patti... I am very much attached to my granny, she used tell me all moral stories,cooking,how to put kolam,singing etc etc.... I miss u patti... Be with me as my god guide me throughout my life...

p.s: Hereafter i will post regularly... A lot of stuffs to be shared...

Ups and downs

I think my blogger's block is over now :) Last weekdays really been mixed with too many ups and downs of my emotions... We had our class girls get together , met all my friends , had lunch there and played Uno cards ( I don't know to play uno before that day :P ) Had fun on that day... Totally enjoyed and i was speaking too much no that day , didn't allow any others to speak :D Too much of loneliness and depression made me speak more on that day....

There was a cold war going war going between me and my mom... Yesterday both got in to quarrel... My mom feels im very discipline less :( She wants me to get up early daily , so there it got started yesterday... Today we both patched up :D Started our Navarathri shopping :) My mom bought me new slippers today :) My dad feels when me and mom gel together and go out
for shopping ,we are spending a lot of money :P

After 2 years this time golu in home.. So I have planned some ideas for park.. Lets see how its going to work :) Tomorrow going to get golu gift... My mom always goes different design of plates or boxes... This time I asked her to think something more innovative for giving gift...
Everyday some bad news in news paper... My parents are scared a lot about my joining... Im still waiting for my date of joining... Deemed universities are being called before us , i feel i would have studied in a deemed university itself with so much ease... Ennamo po kannu katiya apparam surya namaskaram :( No value for dot 2 college students in the job market... sigh...

Really few days getting bored a lot... Im just going mad day by day... People who i trusted turned to be unfaithful and dishonest to me... Im getting see real faces of my friends nowadays... I am not able to concentrate in my preparation too... One day im studying in a week... I have to speed up to finish the course...

This is what happening in my life these days :) Everyday im getting different emotional feeling.. It just like a roller coaster... Just leading the life as it goes... Its enough for today :P

p.s: wait for my next post on golu filled with pictures :)
V1000 songs are good :)

My new found hobby :)

I am having a routine life these days... Getting late at morning ,sleeping late night a kind of used to this one.. I am trying hard to change this habit... One of my friend sent a forward about how good is getting up early and what all are the merits... So i got inspired with that forward... Hereafter i am going to get up early as much as possible... I have started working out from today :) Okay fine i am getting too much good nowadays... You may be wondering where is my new found hobby is in the above para... Wait , what's so hurry in knowing it ;)
Last week i attended my mom friend's daughter's marriage... Too many handsome looking guys were there... Time passed well two days there... My uncle and aunt returned to their home town back... Then kumbha abhishkam of the near by perumal koil was conducted last week... My mom love this place because the urchavar perumal will pass through our apartment street... So on the kumbha abhishkam day god perumal was mounted Garuda vahanam.. I have taken few pictures picutres... I am sharing it here...



These days i am myself making busy watching tv... I am getting bored of this online... Because all are busy with their work life... No one there to chat or nothing much happening in others blog too... I have avoided being in online unnecessarily... Is this really me??? ;) Yeah, i am changing changing ;)
My new found hobby is make up :) People who know me personally can know my grooming sense... I used to natural looking not even use powder... When my brother came from US got me a lot of cosmetic stuffs which i don't even know how to use??? So, now that i have become an expert make up :P I am learning about eyelash make up nowadays.. I have passed in lip make up and face make up :) Its really fun doing this... Only thing is i don't have anyone to experiment my make up stuffs... I am the specimen for my make up venture :P ;) So all of a sudden within in one week I have become good in something :) It feels great :) I think my new found hobby will be a great time pass for me...

p.s: I am getting my pan card this week :)
Going to apply for passport soon :D
Life is good :)

something happening :)

I am busy these days.. I don't have time to write any new post ;) Uncle and aunt has come to home.. Time passing well with them... This week I went out with my friends for a movie... My friend who planned for movie came late by 30 minutes for the movie... We had lunch together :) These days I am just so happy happy :D
Many colleges have started getting their date of joining... So chances are high to get my date of joining soon :) Yesterday to my friend's home and good chat with her... Cousin marriage this week... I am gonna have fun this week :)
Started liking facebook... Nowadays I am very much active in orkut communities... Last week I saw four movies.. My points for them are
Jayamkondan : 3/5
Vinay was looking wired with his mustache... A very simple story around brother(vinay) and sister(lekha) character... vivek's comedy track is good... Few song tracks are good...
can be watched once...

Dhaam Dhoom : 2/5
Jayam ravi goes to Russia for one week before his marriage... Come across few problems and goes to jail... Lakshmi rai helps him proving him innocent and sending him back to India for his marriage... Kangana Ranaut better be with bollywood... Don't come to kollywood please :P She was total crappy... First half of the movie was good and second half was too much dragging...

Another Cindellera Story :4/5
A very nice romantic comedy movie... If you people love to dance watch this movie... I liked it alot :)

Soccer mom: 3/5
A mom who coaches soccer for her daughter's team... She makes her self as an Italian soccer player and teaches them... Lady changing into a man... Its fun to watch...

p.s: Still many movies to be watched...

Teacher's Day !!!

Many of my friends forgot that today is Teacher's day ... I am writing this post as a tribute to all the teacher's who have been in my life guiding and supporting in all the endeavors... I really have got very good teacher's in my school and college days...

I have always been teachers favourite student in my high school and in my tutions... I have really got inspired my few the teacher's who are the reason for the level I am in my life now... My tution teacher's where always gems... I can't forget them... They had faith in me that I would get more marks in my 12th board exams... I always wanted to be a teacher in my future until I entered my college life :) My college professors are always encouraging me to score high marks and perform well... I can remember that maths and computer science was my favourite subject because of teachers who taught me... I hated history and biology during my 10th std... Thats the reason I am still weak in both ;) I have always got good sanskrit teachers who made me more interested in the language...

All these 16 yrs they have been spoon feeding me, at times made me creative, innovative and a hard worker... I am just left now to face this world without them... No one to guide me and teach me as they have been in these many years...

With a special gift for learning

And with a heart that deeply cares,

You add a lot of love

To everything you share,

And even though

You mean a lot,

You'll never know how much,

For you helped

To change the world

Through every life you touched.

You sparked the creativity

In the students whom you taught,

And helped them strive for goals

That could not be bought,

You are such a special teacher

That no words can truly tell

However much you're valued

For the work you do so well.

--Author Unknown

p.s : I miss all my teacher's now...

Loneliness

In my childhood I always wanted to be the only kid in the home... I used to tell my mom that atleast in next janmaam have me as your only kid , don't want anna... Whenever I am with him , we both end up fighting for everything... So at a point of life everybody loves to be alone and enjoy the loneliness...
During the initial days I loved my loneliness... I always wanted to alone, calm and silent away from all... Just me and me alone... This is the reason that I even don't had many friends during my school days and college life... But the same loneliness is sucking now for me which was a bliss for me few days before... Now i feel i want minimum 10 people in my home... There should be always more noise, chit chatting , laughing , fun and masti in my home...

p.s: Loneliness can make people go mad.....

Saturated Life !!!

Most pathetic life is being in home jobless waiting for a company to call. The most horrible period I say. Your parents say you not to sit idle in home. Your seniors and friends say enjoy the holidays. Your siblings will say you are worth for nothing. All the relatives will ask you whether you want a job with their reference in a company.


All I want to tell them all is I am having a job in my hand. I am happy with that. I can wait until they call me. But how long I can wait?? 6 months or 7 months??? Initially first few months will be going fine. Watching TV, online, messaging, chatting with friends in phone for hours together, eating and sleeping.How many days these can be fun??? Parents start pampering you to try for some other companies and stop watching movies, stop speaking hours together in phone and at last they tell me try to limit your expenditures even though you are not able to earn now.They started losing interest in me. For past two months I am trying get a passport for me. I have only ration card as my proof. But that's not enough to get a passport. All I wanted is a bank account. When I said my friends that I don't have a back account , voters id and License to apply for passport.


In 21 yrs I have been riding vehicle without license for 8 yrs. I wonder for not having a bank account for myself. Whenever I wanted money dad used to give me. All my friends asked me how come you have been like this without any proof?? I was not able to answer them too.After too much pleading dad I got a bank account finally. Now I have to apply for my passport. When you’re in such a state without an identity and idle in home everything becomes so impossible for us. Even it may be getting passport or a license.


After leading a systematic life going to school properly and then to college sincerely and really being nerd for 6yrs, it’s all tough for me to lead a life like this. I am bored being bore. Nobody can understand this state of life than a friend. But again coming to friends they won't there with you after college life. Very few will be in contact with you. Even those few are out of station or busy in their work. The loneliness, being idle, advices from others whomever we meet or speak all this really sucks.I thought life after college will be so cool, no more studies. I can live my life. But I was totally wrong. All finishing your studies and got a job in hand and sitting like couch potato in home is more sucking. The transition period from student to an employee is not as easy.Whatever we do parents think it’s not good. Nobody to share what we feel. No friends listen to us. Really tough after being studious kinds for these many years. I feel I have not enjoyed the school and college to the fullest. All I have to enjoy my life now before joining a company. But your parents don't allow you to enjoy. I feel the generation gap with them now.


Most important thing is the sleeplessness. I am really not able to sleep before 1 or 2 am. Even if I try to sleep I am not able to sleep thinking about my state life. End up sleeping late at night. Getting up late morning and daily scolding from mom. Skip the breakfast. I am totally spoiling my health doing like this.In this period of life one can't live without mobile phone, pc, internet connection and games. I have been trying to make my parents understand my situation. But they feel i am wasting my life. Every month when your mobile validity gets over and the time you have to ask them for money and even for hanging out with friends.

Nothing so happening. All I live a virtual life nowadays trying to be active in that. This life is more difficult to lead for a person like me who don't even have a best friend to share. So, i am sharing it here.


p.s : feeling good after ranting this much :)

My bad luck with mobile phones :(

I got my first mobile in my second year after pleasing my parents getting a good percentage in my semester exams. I loved the mobile too much. I was always with my mob day and night when i am in home. I loved my mobile too much than more than anything. It got lost after one year.

After that i was without mobile for 6 months. Then my brother got me new stylish good looking mobile with a bluetooth headphone. But i made its stylish looking to pathetic one by dropping it more than 20 times. Now its keypad got totally screwed up. I wanted a new mobile now. I thought of managing this mobile until i join my job and start earning. But this mobile died before that. At last i asked my dad to get me one new mobile even said a mobile 2k will be fine for me. I had 600 rupees with me so dad gave 1200 rupees and i got a new mobile for 1.8k yesterday.

It was my first shopping alone. My mom was total against of me getting a mobile now. But dad was pretty ok with it. I don't know why im having such a bad luck with mobile phones???

Everybody will go for better one in their life. But in my case its i have come to lower one after using very good mobile :(

p.s: Actually shopping alone was quite thrilling too :)

Making friends: Easy or tough??

Many times in our journey of life we feel like being friend with some people whom we see. It feels like it would be nice if he/she is our friend. During my school days I get friends very easily. Not even I had the hesitation to go and speak to them during school days. In my school nobody bully you when you speak with a guy. Everybody's mind was pretty good. So last time I think I have been myself speaking with the people I like and being friend to them was in school days. It ended up there itself.

After coming to college it was totally different. Never a guy would come and speak with a girl. Even if a guy gathers all his courage and speaks with a girl then he is dead. From the teasing and bullying stuffs he gets. Even some of the girls too never go and speak with guys. I have been in coed in my schooling. So I just don't feel any different between genders. I just treat them all equally. During my first year of college one guy K would chat with my hours together in YM. I asked him why you don’t speak freely in class with me. Also you don't even look at me when I am in the class. He gave the same bullshit reason that all his friends would be teasing him.

I really don't mind speaking with any guy in my class. Even though they are scared to speak with girls I still try to speak with my class guys during lab hours. But still everybody started thinking bad about me that I am behind every tom, dick and harry. So from that day I reduced speaking with all. For just two year of college life was like this. After that everybody mingled well. During college days I really liked one mech guy R. Every time I see him in Auditorium or in canteen I feel like it would be nice if be a friend of him. As you know how my buddies would think of me when I go and speak to me. Even I had the hesitation how would that guy think of me when I go and speak to him. So I really didn't try being friend with anybody other than my class guys.

At my 3rd year of college my bro introduced me to this blog sphere. I read really a lot of blogs. At times I feel how it would be if be his friend. I search the blog guys and girls in orkut and twitter just try to know about them. If some people are revealing their name I would like to find out their real name. It would be quite funny and interesting. You may now I think I am so jobless that I am doing these things. I am not jobless it’s just a curiosity that I want to know them. After few months I thought why can't I add up some of my favorite bloggers in my gtalk and chat with them.

I added two of them M and G. When I added them I was so happy that I can chat with my favorite bloggers. I introduced myself to M first we really had chatted for some 20 minutes. I should reply we I ask him something. Never ask anything himself. To say I felt that he was not at all interested in being friend with me and knowing about me. After first day other days went more pathetically,
me: hi
M: hey
me: Good morning :) What u doing??
M: just now got up. I am brushing.
me: k carry on...
Its ends here
next time
me: hii(many i’s in a hi then they r more excited)
M: (after 5 mins) yeah
me: busy??
M: im cooking / eating/ etc
me: k carry on
it ends here. So the chat never goes beyond that.
With G it was worse.
me: hiii
G: Do I know u?
me: No you don’t know me. I know u. I follow your blog.
G: Oh like that.
me: s
ends here no reply.

Next time
me: hiiii
G: (No reply)
I assume he is very busy.

From all I want to know is "are they really not interested in chatting with some stranger?? Or They have starting problem to chat with someone?? I end up thinking they are not as friendly as me. Or they think its waste of time chatting with someone else..?? May be they even think why I am disturbing them??"When I said this to one of my very good friend he replied me telling "whatz your problem dear?? Just fuck off with those guys.. Why you want to speak with those who are not at all interested in chatting with you?" I agree with whatever he said. But still wanted to know why I can't be their friend. I am regretting now for adding them in my gtalk. At last to a conclusion they think I don't deserve to be their friend.

p.s: I think they are not friendly as me... I am really super cool ;)

My space

Blogging after many days feels good... I am just going to rant about my personal life, discuss about my favourite stuffs, ramble about things i don't like too... I have started this blog to share my thoughts... I want to be myself in this virtual life... I can freak out, be crazy, shout at anybody and be weird, which im not able to be in my real life... I have always felt like im not living my life to the fullest... Also i m gonna maintain this blog as my personal diary..

17th aug

Got up at 10.30 am...
Had a great food since today was gayatri jabaam...
Watched olympics for few hours...
Then sent time reading blog( This is what i do mostly when im online )...
Today found two very nice blogs...
Right from morning was little upset because my bro was leaving to US after his vacation... I love him too much but never show it to him... Even he is too like me... I feel so insecure and alone without him... From morning didn't speak much to him... I don't want him to find that im gonna miss him... But all in vain, i cried in airport before he left to check in... Eventhough i know im going be in touch with him daily through voice chats,but still my mind feels im left alone...
Reached home at 12.45am from airport...
Now in online writing this post...
Good night :)

p.s: Have to get up early tomorrow....